Hmm . . . Well, it is inventory time. Inventories are never quite easy. However, I will ascertain the best I can. I will rate my physical well being as a 9 on a scale from 1 to 10 with 10 being optimal. Yes, I have room for growth, but am physically set up well right now. Psychologically speaking, I will place myself at a 9 again. Yes, there is always room for improvement. However, my mind is quite strong right now. Spiritually speaking, I will give myself a 5. Here is the fact: I am quite strong spiritually; however, I am in a position and making a choice regarding a spiritual matter that would normally be against my belief system. Although I still "feel" spiritually strong, I cannot give myself a higher number because of "factual information" and what I know is wrong, etc. Does that make sense? Yeah . . . I will leave it at a 5 because I do not know what else to do.
When thinking of goals in each of these areas, I will state this: physically, back to my workout routine. I was taking a break through the holiday and am ready to get back into my routine. Psychologically speaking . . . I am not sure here. I would like to engage in more mental practices but I am not sure which direction to go. I will trust our lesson plans for now unless others have personal suggestions for me. Spiritually speaking, I will call a few friends for guidance who can aid my understanding further. I believe in praying and will do that. However, I know what the word of God says regarding some of my choices and am not sure I can change them right now. Hmm . . . definitely in rebellion right now and I am not sure I want to change this. Any advice out there? This one is hard. I think I have already implemented activities needed here: the exercise, searching for mental exercises and calling/reaching out to friends. Now, I wait.
Well, when doing the exercise "The Crime of the Century", my first thought was that the title had no way related to the exercise. What is that about? Do I have the wrong link. Maybe . . . I will have to read some other blogs to find out if this was the consensus. Nevertheless, I needed the "rainbow journey" I will call it. However, with the visualization of the first color red, I sobbed for quite some time. I was told to envision an object with this color and then could not get the object from my mind. It was a brilliant red fleece from a friend that I was able to visit over the holiday and greatly miss already. Having said all that, the exercise left me refreshed and energized. Of course, sometimes a good cry will do that too. But, I think this exercise was greatly needed.
Traci,
ReplyDeleteI, too, noticed the name of the exercise didn't seem to fit well! As I continued forward though, I felt that it seemed like something we would do in our class here. I'm glad you were able to let it in and it struck such a chord with you.. hopefully that same energy will allow you to see your friend again soon :)
May I ask what spiritual conflict you are experiencing? If it is too personal for the "blogging world" I completely understand. I was just trying to gain a better understanding of your inner battle...
And yes, I too have also found that sourcing friends and family for sound advice can make such a difference!
Good luck!
Hello Traci,
ReplyDeletePsychological exercises could be anything that strengthens your mind. Some examples could be Sudoku, cross word puzzles, mystery novels, and reading in general. Being in school helps strengthen our minds because we are forced to think and figure things out.
Rebellion mode? Sounds like you are in a state of anxiety? Or unhappiness? Change should start here; whatever is at the core of the unsatisfied feelings you hold is what needs to be addressed. Perhaps writing a personal journal will help to figure out where this is coming from? Or find solace in an activity that allows your mind to focus on something positive. You are either missing something in your life that you truly think you need, or have too much of something that you truly do not need in your life. Good luck Traci, on your journey.
Emily
Traci!
ReplyDeleteI sobbed like a baby right as we got to blue and before he even described what it represented. When I looked up that Chakra - it related to so well, I have had laryngitis for some time and a cold, and psychologically it represents depression and life struggles as the man referenced in the Rainbow Meditation. I am so glad I was not the only crier! It sounds like you are on the right path to wellness... keep going!!!